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Hidden Insecurity and Fear

»Posted on Mar 29, 2018 in Personal Growth | 0 comments

You ever feel this way or is it just me?  Maybe it seems like nothing you do will ever be enough.  The tapes that play in your head say that if people REALLY knew what was going on inside you, they would lose respect for you.  If they knew you ate that second donut after your spat with your husband, they’d think what a loser you were. If they heard your inside voice when that gorgeous woman showed up beside you at the store, then, whoa…

Maybe you keep trying to pretend you’ve got it all together, so that you can try to make everybody happy, including God, and you are exhausted, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Hidden Insecurity and FearAnd for women, even more so, there is pressure to conform to a certain image, to look a certain way, to be a certain size, and to act a certain way.  But deep down, we all know that we will never measure up, and so we try harder and harder to keep up the mask of what we think we should be.  And in today’s world, women are celebrated for being confident, “take-charge” women, and so we hide our insecurities behind this “Wonder Woman” persona. I know I do. I even have a Wonder Woman cup to prove it.

But deep down, we know that we’re all just one step away from failure or being discovered as a fraud, and so we are filled with – actually, CONTROLLED by – hidden insecurity and fear.  Some of you reading this do everything in your power to mask that insecurity, even from yourself.  You deny it and even scoff at the idea that it could possibly affect you. You are Woman, hear me roar.

But I see it for what it is:  it’s a mask – it’s your survival instincts to protect yourself.  I see you.

EVERYONE struggles with this, because we live in a broken world that does not tell us of our infinite worth in God’s eyes, and in fact, does everything in its power to steal that from us. But because of our fear and insecurity, we learn early on to hide our vulnerabilities and fears. We deeply struggle with feelings of shame because we know our mess-ups and failures, and we are so afraid of rejection if others REALLY knew what was going on in our lives. And so we hide.

The age-old battle with shame.  And the problem with shame is that it isolates, it makes us go underground, it keeps us hidden – and unfortunately, it prevents us from healing, from reaching out to others and God.  It makes us feel all alone, like no one would ever understand the darkness in our hearts – if they REALLY knew me…

From the work that I do as a psychologist – and from my own personal experience – I am realizing more and more the devastating bondage of shame in our lives.  I am also realizing that shame isn’t just about the awful feeling of failure because of our sins that hurt us or others – but that shame is based on the negative messages we get growing up – through abuse, abandonment, rejection, failure – that there is something WRONG with us, that we aren’t lovable, that it’s somehow always our fault because our personhood, our identities, are deeply flawed.

You feel worthless, YOU are bad and therefore without hope, since your shame becomes a part of WHO you are.  You feel like you’re flawed, worthless, useless, so you need to hide who you are. But when I hide in shame, it keeps me from being known, from receiving the grace of God.  Shame feels so bad that I feel I must work to earn others’ love and God’s.

Wrong behaviour can be confessed and forgiven.  But shame is a root problem, hidden below the surface that bears the fruit of self-contempt. But because shame is so difficult to experience, many of us deny and push it aside rather than walk through the painful events that lead to our insecurities and current struggles.

I’d like to share with you what I’ve learned as a shame recoverer in the hopes that my experiences can encourage you and bring you a sense of hope in your own struggles.  I’ve learnt that there are 3 important truths that are critical for you to know about yourself in your journey of healing.

First of all, you matter.

There is something within the heart of every one of us that longs for acceptance, approval and affirmation.  This is a core need for all of us.

Instead, from birth, we are assaulted with hurtful experiences and wounding words that tear away at our sense of worth, or from emotional vacuums that fill us with emptiness and a sense of being forgotten. When affirmation and attention is given to us, it is usually in response to our accomplishments, or for being “good”, or for our external looks, so we learn from an early age the importance of performance and personal effort in receiving the love and affirmation we so desperately want.

And so we pour ourselves out in the different roles we play, while deep down feeling like we have no identity apart from what we do for others.  Any of this sound familiar to any of you?

Lost in our secret fears and doubts — which we’ve all learned to cover up lest it leads to more rejection or judgement — we enter the world, only to be assaulted by the messages of our performance-based and success-driven culture.  Perfectionism is at an all time high, as we struggle to measure up to some invisible standard of acceptability in the world’s eyes.

And so, we struggle with feeling like we are a failure, because we can’t seem to keep up with everyone else.  Or we literally work ourselves to death to keep up, ending up with a host of physical, emotional and relational problems that we try to mask with medication, shopping, electronics or other distractions.

We are children of the Most High King – and yet many of us live as if we’re not.  Or we believe that we have to EARN our place in his affection, and so we push ourselves and push ourselves in the mistaken belief that our efforts are what earn my identity as His child.

Well, Jesus wants to say to all of you today, “YOU MATTER”.  You matter deeply to him.  He came to this earth for YOU personally, and when he was dying on the cross, YOUR FACE was in his mind’s eye, your name was whispered under his breath.  Can we choose to accept this truth about our worth to the Most High King?

The 2nd truth that is core to understanding and accepting our deep value as God’s children is, you make a difference.

When I was a child, my mother told me that I was an accident, that I was an unplanned pregnancy.  She went on to tell me about the incredible stress she was under trying to raise my older two siblings and all that was going on in my family’s life at that time, and how she tried everything short of abortion to get rid of me.  As an adult now, I can understand the strain that she must have been under to have felt so desperate, but as a child, that conversation marked me for life.

If my conception was an accident, then was my whole life an accident?  Am I just here taking up space in this world?  Does this mean that my life really doesn’t count for anything? Some of you may be feeling the same way if you’ve had similar messages of invalidation growing up. We may have drawn wrong conclusions about our lives based on our experiences, and the lies spoken over us.

You may feel like your life is just a blip in the radar screen of the universe, especially as your life today seems to be only about repetitive and meaningless tasks that seem so insignificant in the bigger picture.  For others of you who are more on the introverted and shy side, you may feel like you tend to fade into the background when you’re in groups, and so you start to feel like you’re really kind of insignificant.  Like, who are you that God could ever use you to do anything remarkable or impactful?

One of my greatest sorrows in working with people is to see how many of them fail to reach their God-given potential because they have listened to the lies of the enemy and don’t believe the truth about themselves.  My heart breaks at the many lost opportunities for healing and change, as people hold back in fear, self-doubt and inability to give their pain to their Father and trust Him with their lives.

I wonder at our Father’s sorrow, too, as He watches his beloved children struggle because of believing lies. How His heart must break to see us move away from his purposes for our lives. I know, I know, I know, that he never intended for us to suffer as a result of believing lies about ourselves.

The last truth that I want to share with you is this:  You are known.  When you grow up like I did feeling like a forgotten child, and you really don’t know who you are deep inside, the thought that you are deeply known by your Father may be hard to grasp.  Even if you were rarely affirmed as a little girl growing up, or you lost sight of who you were apart from the roles you play and all the people you try to care for and please, your Father has never lost sight of who you are.

You may be sitting there reading this, thinking that I must be so sure of who I am, that I’m a confident woman who is comfortable in my own skin, that somehow I have it all together.  While there’s a part of me who is slowly getting there, there’s another part of me that still struggles with the age-old question of, “Who am I?”

But a number of years ago, God really challenged me to take a good honest look at the masks I wear.  During a time of utter weariness when I was serving in 6 different ministries (yes, it’s true), moving very quickly to burn out – and also feeling short-tempered and unable to cope with the challenges of my life, he led me to a book that has been transforming for me.  It’s called, “Posers, Fakers and Wannabes” by Brennan Manning.

It felt like a giant kick to my gut, but at the same time in some weird twisted way, it was also a time of deep encouragement for me.  It led to the start of a journey that has been so freeing for me in my life.  I realized that I would never discover my true identity as God’s Daughter unless I began identifying and laying down my masks.  And so began a process of stripping away the defenses that I had built up over the years, but at the same time, the walls that had prevented me from growing in an intimacy with God that could only come from meeting with him as the true ME.

As I began to let down my masks and my fears and I began to let go of what I perceived to be others’ expectations of me and the roles I thought I had to play, out of that grew a freedom to experience God in a deeper and more intimate way that I ever thought was possible. I began to understand how I could go to him in all my raw, true self and receive his complete acceptance, grace and perfect love for me, flawed and sinful as I am.  I began to little by little accept how truly beloved I was, and how treasured I was.

I learned that God DOES REALLY know me – the total me, that he already foreknew all of my sins, my bad choices, my failures before I was even conceived – and that upon that basis, God chose to put his hand on my life and make me a beloved and chosen daughter of his.

I learned that I needed to allow God to define me – not my sins or my failures, but in my identity as his chosen daughter.  I also realized that I needed to let God and others pursue me in my shame.  After God exposed Adam and Eve’s sin, he covered them with garments made of the skins of animals that he sacrificed – he offered them grace and clothed them with dignity so that they wouldn’t feel ashamed.

Just like back then, if you allow him to, God will enter your shame and pursue you to love you, forgive you, clothe you in dignity and restore in you an awareness of who you really are in Christ.  He will also bring people into your life who will see the real you and love you anyway, the people who will enter your shame with you and offer you grace.

Do you know that when God sees you now, he sees you as holy and blameless, clothed in righteousness because of Jesus in you? No matter how much you fail, no matter how many times you fall and sin, no matter how many times you mess up – NOTHING will ever take away from you the love of God.

But you have to open yourself up to true love – because true love heals – true love knows who you are and sees everything about you.  That means coming before the Lord unmasked and honest, laying it all down before him.  Not because he doesn’t already know, but because YOU need to experience his love and grace in the face of your shame and brokenness.  Counterfeit love, on the other hand, is based on my masks, what I can do for others, how holy I can try and be – there is no power in counterfeit love to heal.

Our Father is a very personal Father, and he has carefully crafted each one of us before the beginning of time.  He thought about your personality, your physical body and every tiny detail of you.  And when he was finished creating you, he sat back and was pleased with what he created.  Even though he knew that his precious creation was going to sin – and to continue to struggle with sin every day of their lives this side of heaven – he was still pleased with his creation. Just like when you create a work of art, you are deeply familiar with every stroke, word or intricate detail of your creation – so God knows every single hair on your head.  His thoughts of YOU are more than the grains of sands.  (Psalm 139).

So what does God want to say to you today?  Will you choose to invite him into your shame and allow his grace and love to bring healing in your life?

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The THREE R’s to Loving Yourself

»Posted on Mar 24, 2018 in Inspirational | 0 comments

There’s an old story from the Polynesian Islands called Johnny Lingo and his 10 cow wife. It goes like this: In those days and in that part of the world, if a man wanted to marry a girl, it was necessary for him to pay her father a dowry. Usually the expected dowry was a single cow but depending on how badly the man wanted his bride, he might even go as high as 3 maybe 4 cows.

Now it just so happened that Johnny Lingo was in love with Mahanna, a young girl from the next island over – a woman, who, let’s just say all the villagers agreed, her father, Mokie, would be lucky to get even one cow for her. She was slouched and sallow and sullen, and when Johnny arrived to bargain for her, shrewd old Mokie asked for 3 cows because he thought at least that way, Johnny Lingo would have to offer at least 1 cow in return.

Johnny squinted his eyes for a minute and then he said, “Mokie, 3 cows is a lot but it’s not enough for my Mahanna. I’ll give you 10 cows for her hand in marriage.” Everyone was stunned. Mokie agreed before Johnny could change his mind. So Johnny paid 10 cows for poor sad Mahanna, and with all the villagers snickering behind his back, he went home with his bride.

It was some time before anyone heard from them again, but it so happened that one of the villagers was on a trading trip to Johnny’s island and so he popped in for a visit years later. When he arrived, this stunning young woman met him at the door. She stood tall and straight, face glowing and her eyes shining. Stammering, the villager asked for Johnny Lingo.

After they exchanged pleasantries, he asked Johnny, who was that beautiful woman, to which Johnny replied, “That was my Mahanna.” He could tell the villager was having difficulty lining up the beautiful woman he had just met with the memory of the ugly girl who had left the island so many years ago, so Johnny explained. “What girl can be truly beautiful if she believed that she was only worth 1 or 2 cows to her man? No, we’re as beautiful as we’re told we are, and a woman who’s told she’s worth 10 cows will become a 10 cow wife.”

So question for you: Do you see yourself as a 10 cow woman? How many of us see ourselves as worthy of God’s attention and love?

Because HOW you see yourself – your sense of worth and value – defines everything about your life: Your ability to withstand the hard knocks of life, to remain grounded and resilient when the storms come roaring around to knock you down. Your capacity to reach your God-sized dream, to take risks that will include failing, facing our fears, facing giants that oppose us. Your ability to love your neighbour as yourself.

And truthfully, even your ability to love God fully.

Because loving God means trusting him, and trusting him means feeling utterly and completely safe with him. And feeling safe with him means knowing with an unshakeable confidence that he loves you and has your back, no matter what.

Do you love yourself? I mean, really love yourself? Not in a “Wow, look at me, I’m so great” way but in a “Whoa, I am a Daughter of the Most High King”?

My sneaking suspicion is that the answer – for many of us – is a resounding NO.

When we’re born, we are born tabula rasa – without knowledge or understanding of ourselves, the world, others, and God. It’s our life experiences, especially with our primary caregivers, that begin to imprint our sense of our worth, as well as who we think we are.

Every newborn needs to answer two questions: 1) Are others reliable and trustworthy to love and protect me? and 2) Am I worthy of being loved?

Loving YourselfThe answer to these two questions form the basis of our attachment. Attachment is a system that explains the principles and emotions of relationship – how they work and how they don’t, how we feel when we’re with the ones we love. Our ability to love and connect with others is based on our attachment to our primary caregivers.

Picture a baby being born: her awareness of herself and of others is shaped by how her caregivers respond to her needs. Her brain is hardwired to learn, and her neural pathways are ready to be established based on her experiences.

Research now shows that our brain’s neural pathways are hardwired based on our attachment experiences. God has created us to be in relationship – with himself and with others, so our brains actually develop in the context of relationship experiences. We are discovering increasingly each day how dependent a child’s developing brain is on its mother’s sensitive, attuned and responsive care – these early experiences literally shape the chemical processes in the brain responsible for how we control our impulses and calm our strong emotions.

As a result, fear of abandonment is the fundamental human fear – it’s so basic and profound that it emerges even before we have a language to describe it – it’s so powerful that it activates the bodies autonomic nervous system and kicks in our fight or flight reaction if we fear we are going to be abandoned.

All of us have experienced rejection and broken trust – it is the reality of living in a broken world with broken people. But layer on top of that this reality – what happens if you grew up in an abusive home – where the very people who were supposed to love and protect were the source of injury? What does that teach you about love and relationships?

And even if we grew up with stable, attuned and loving parents, ALL of us have experienced attachment wounds – times when our parents couldn’t be there for us, times when in their humanity as parents, they made mistakes and forgot us, or were unnecessarily angry with us, or were too stressed or sick to really be there for us.

Remember a child doesn’t have the ability to think, “my mommy is stressed right now and that’s why she’s mad at me.” Instead, that child thinks she was a bad girl or it’s her fault that her mom was so upset. Can you see this?

Out of those experiences, we automatically begin to believe lies such as:

I’m a nuisance.

I’m bad.

I’m only loved if I’m good.

I’m on my own, no one is there for me.

People can’t be trusted.

There’s something wrong with me.

I’m only loved if I do something for others.

Oh, we know in our head that these aren’t true, but our hearts are still entrapped in responding to these lies as if they were true. We still struggle with deep insecurities about out worth and our love-able-ness. And these insecurities, my friends, will prevent us time and time again from loving ourselves. Because deep down we wonder if we really are worth loving. If you REALLY knew me…

My friends, we have to actively fight for our sense of worth and value. We need to take an offensive stance, not a defensive one. If we are in defensive mode, it means we have to spend all of our energies trying to fight off the arrows that others and the world sling at us, so we never take back any ground. We end up reacting time and time again, rather than proactively taking a stand and choosing to live out of the truth that we are God’s beloved.

I want to offer up 3 R’s for you to remember how to actively fight for your sense of worth:

  1. Reject the Lies of the Enemy

The Bible says in 1 Peter 5:8 that the enemy is prowling around like a roaring lion to devour us. We know this, but we often think of that more as “big bad wolf” maneuvers, like he’s going to take us down in one fell swoop.

The enemy is actually much more slick than that. He’s a master tactician. He studies us, knows our vulnerabilities, and he stages a steady campaign to devour us. If we saw him coming, we’d be all over it fighting him off. Instead, he gets inside our head, and feeds us a steady stream of subtle lies over a long period of time. He uses our experiences and our traumas and our fears, and whispers lies to us. The ones that are exquisitely designed to get inside our psyche and mess us up.

The most effective strategies in warfare (listen, I watch all these spy series on Netflix so I’m an expert) when you’re trying to break down an enemy during an interrogation is to get him to question what’s true and what’s not. Twist, twist, twist – take the truth and give it a spin to it so all of a sudden, it takes on a nefarious meaning.

One of the most effective counter-strategies is to use TRUTH as your weapon. When I get triggered and I’m struggling with feelings of shame or self-criticism, I will say “truth prayers” out loud to myself: “Thank you that I’m holy and blameless in your eyes. Thank you that there is now no condemnation because I am in Christ Jesus. Thank you that you delight in me and dance over me, etc”. I say these truth statements out loud because my brain thinks and also hears it, which helps reinforce them and overwrite the lies resounding in my head. But most importantly, I’m doing spiritual warfare like Jesus did when he was tempted in the desert by the devil, when he spoke Scripture out loud. I keep going until my feelings subside and I am feeling a sense of groundedness and peace once again.

  1. Resist the Standards of the World

My friends, you are not of this world and the things of this world are passing away. Remember who rules this world – and let me just tell you, he is not our friend. We know that, but why do we let ourselves be defined by the standards of this world?

Just look at the media and you can already see very quickly which standards rule – our looks, our successes, our material goods, who we know. Oh, and of course, what other people think about us. Because it’s all about how many followers we have on social media and how many likes we get for our posts.

Listen, I’m not pointing fingers. I spend waaaay too much time planning out my outfits, obsessing about my weight, watching the number of likes on my last post, and looking jealously at the successes and beauty of other women. Arghh… I wish I didn’t do that, but all of us get caught up in the world’s standards.

But the worse for me is how often I let other’s insecurities define me and tell me how I should act and who I am. I stew for far too long when I think someone doesn’t like me, or someone says something critical or judgemental about me. Arghhh…

My commitment to myself and to God is to track myself and to be intentional about what I choose to think about or look at. I ask God to regularly help me. These are the Scriptures I’ve been meditating on and praying back to God, “Open up before GOD, keep nothing back; he’ll do whatever needs to be done: He’ll validate your life in the clear light of day and stamp you with approval at high noon. Quiet down before GOD, be prayerful before him. Don’t bother with those who climb the ladder, who elbow their way to the top… Stalwart walks in step with GOD; [her] path blazed by GOD, [she’s] happy. If [she] stumbles, [she’s] not down for long; GOD has a grip on [her]hand.” (Psalm 37: 5-7; 23-24 MSG)

Can I just say… can we please celebrate and support each other as women, rather than tearing each other down in our insecurities and jealousy? We tend to compare ourselves with other women and see them as rivals. We struggle with feeling inadequate in the shadow of amazing women. And so we can be mean to each other. We can judge each other harshly. So let’s stop with that already, ok?

  1. Rest in Who You are as Gods Beloved Daughter

In my head, I KNOW that I am God’s beloved daughter and I know that I am of infinite value in his eyes. I hear that truth in my mind, and I even believe it at times, but all too often, I don’t live it in my life.  Why do we have a hard time believing this truth?

Since the Garden of Eden to today, when Eve took a bite of that apple, she left for us two legacies that still haunt us to this day. From the time Eve was tempted by the Serpent and she took that bite of the apple, she began to feel SHAME, and out of that shame, FEAR of being naked before God, and so, she hid herself.  Shame and fear began to control her and dictate to her what she should do, even forcing her to turn away from the only One who could free her and heal her.  Eve ran away from LOVE.

Eve ran away from the one thing she was designed to need, the one thing that would create safety for her – to be in relationship with God. Science now tells us what the Bible has been telling us for years: we are created for relationship – with each other and with God.

In fact, science tells us that relationships heal. But all of us have stories of relationship wounds, disappointments and betrayals. So life tells us that relationships hurt.

But here’s the ironic truth – the most natural and best place to heal from trauma is in relationship with someone you love – that kind of relationship heals. All of my skills as a psychologist cannot compare with the emotional cues from a safe attachment figure.

The most effective way to deal with distress is to turn to a trusted other. That means that as a Christ follower, God is the place we take your vulnerability to – God is the source of healing, safety, and connection.

Did you know that when you’re facing a traumatizing or painful situation, if you hear the voice of a trusted and safe person, it’ll access your emotional part of the brain? That’s why when we focus on God’s truths and hear his voice, it’ll calm us and help us deal with the situation. Proximity to an attachment figure tranquillizes the nervous system.

Don’t let the enemy lie to you about your infinite worth in God’s eyes. Don’t let shame and fear cause you to run away and hide from LOVE. Don’t let the pain of life mask God’s love for you, and his desire to be in intimate relationship with you.

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A Time Of Grief and Sorrow

»Posted on Nov 21, 2016 in Grief | 0 comments

Grief is a funny thing.

One minute, you’re laughing so hard that you’re snorting, and the next minute, the terrible, yawning emptiness in your heart hits you like a sucker punch to the solar plexus. It takes everything in you just to breathe through the pain.

Grief is jagged. Grief interrupts. Grief takes you on a u-turn. Every single time.

So I’m learning to give myself space and grace. To forgive myself for the unexpected flares of anger and moodiness. To let myself weep when the loss overwhelms. And most of all, to stay in the pocket of grief with courage, even as everything in me wants to run away or numb myself.

Because how else do you find meaning in your grief? Grief is teaching me to cherish each moment with my loved ones. It’s teaching me to count each treasured day as a gift. It’s teaching me to live with gratitude and deliberate joy NOW, rather than waste my days in bitterness or regret, pining away over unfulfilled dreams or unresolved sorrows.

Grief’s dark shadow accentuates the vibrant colours of life and love.

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On the Meaning of Life, Love and Pink Hair

»Posted on Oct 9, 2015 in The Fully Lived Life | 0 comments

I have to confess something: I’m turning 50 in a few weeks. But I’m not going down without a fight. Just sayin’.

No, it’s not a mid-life crisis (although my friends and family may differ in their opinion). Actually, it’s a glorious season in my life. Because I think I have finally grown up. I think I have learned to stop chasing the brass ring, the pursuit of “success” that meant I had finally arrived; that people approved of me; that somehow I was worthy.

Now, I measure much more carefully each moment in my life, and I choose to treasure the good gifts that God has given me. I choose to give priority to the people in my life, the relationships that enrich my life. I think, if I can love them well, would that not be a life well lived? If I can truly represent the love of Jesus to those around me, would that not be a life of success?

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Just a few weeks ago, I heard a pastor preach about a soldier in the Bible. I can’t remember the soldier’s name or where the reference is in the Bible, because, frankly, that’s a reality of turning 50. But hey, I’m still going to talk about this story because as a junior senior, I’m allowed to ramble on about what I want to talk about. But I digress. So this soldier was well trained and all set to go out to battle. He was ready to DIE for the king. But when he presented himself to the king, the king sent him out to guard his lentil field. The LENTILS. Because apparently the king loved his lentils.

Field

That got me thinking. How many lentil fields have I bypassed in my pursuit of success, wealth, and the BIG call? Have I lost sight of what is important to God? Even in my desire to do the BIG thing for God, have I forgotten to do the “small” thing that God wants me to do? In my heart, I so want to live full out for Christ. I feel many times that I would DIE for him. But what if he just wants me to guard his precious lentils?

I gotta be honest with you. Being an author and speaker who has been on national TV, it’s hard not to count the numbers. How many books have I sold? How large is the audience I’m speaking to? How many followers do I have on social media? How often have I let the NUMBERS define my success, that somehow I matter more if I reach more people?

Turning 50 is a time of reflection as I’ve likely passed the point where I’ve lived more years than I will live. It’s causing me to think about my life, about my values and what I’m going to invest the rest of my time in doing. Now, I think… if I die in obscurity but have taken good care of God’s lentil fields, then maybe, just maybe, I have lived a life well lived.

So what about you? Have you allowed time to pass you by without stopping to reflect? Are you sleepwalking through life? STOP now, and choose to THINK about your life, before too much time passes you by. Will you watch this video now and think about what God may be stirring in your soul?

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Oh, and what I said about not going down without a fight? Let’s just say it involves a few things I’ve chosen to do to demarcate my glorious step into my 50s.

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Soli

By the way, the meaning of Soli Deo Gloria? Glory to God alone.

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Soul Rescue

»Posted on May 27, 2015 in The Fully Lived Life | 3 comments

Have you found yourself sleepwalking through life? Are you soul weary? Do you long to fully live but don’t know how? 

Wherever you are in life right now, there probably have been many unexpected turns along the way.  Maybe you aren’t where you thought you’d be, however you first dreamt your life would be. Instead, the realities of your life may be keeping you stuck, unable to break free no matter how hard you pray. Maybe you feel completely overwhelmed by life’s demands, weary beyond belief and wondering where all your hope has gone.

Or you may know you’re blessed, that you really have a “good life” and are very fortunate, but you may still have lost your joy in it. You go through dreary daily routines, fulfilling your duties to your family, work and God, but your heart is dry. Where is the passion and joy within the unending gray monotony of life? This “good life” you have steals your right to complain, so you “suck it up” and keep trudging along. 

Or maybe you’re like me, and deep down, you know that there’s something blocking you from the full life Jesus promised you. You know God probably wants you to deal with it, but you don’t have the time, or the energy, or the courage. Or maybe you just don’t even know where to begin to rescue your soul. Whether it’s unresolved trauma, fear, self-sufficiency or – as it was for me – an inability to fully trust a God who has allowed so much pain and suffering in your life – isn’t it time to allow the Rescuer of our souls help us break free? 

We all try to ignore the emptiness of the soul. But there is something inescapable within each of our souls that hungers so painfully that we can’t even begin to put it into words, something so deep it won’t go away no matter how hard we try. As David said in Psalm 42:1-2, “As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God”.

We aren’t meant to live a dead life. A superficial life. A life oblivious to the stirrings of our hearts. For it’s only in that mysterious depth of our souls that we sense there’s something missing that’s core to life; it’s a painful awareness that we must finally acknowledge and reach into and find God.

Meet You in This Deep Place

God wants to meet you in this deep place, in the inner recess of your heart to meet him there face to face to change your life. He wants to bring you back to life, to know you intimately so that you may know yourself in his love, as he first created you to be. He wants to free you and take over fully because he knows best how we were created to live—completely surrendered to him. For then he knows you will experience the extraordinary in your life, the full life that is his perfect will for you. A life lived fully. 

Take the time now to watch this video as I share about my journey towards soul rescue. And listen to what God is saying to you as you watch.

Come and see. Our Father is inviting you to A FULL LIFE with him.

Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly. (Matthew 11:28–30, The Message) 

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